journal page- spray paint, sharpies, magazine image, hand drawn paper
i often paint in a workshop setting
where techniques are shared,
feedback is welcomed,
and there is camaraderie
with others who have similar passions.
also the latest exhibits are announced
along with shows looking for
art to be submitted.
recently i took a huge step (for me)
and have submitted my work to be shown
in different venues.
i found that painting became
a chore, pressure. i wondered if my work
was acceptable, good enough.
it was no longer the fun and free
pleasure with no rules.
after i wrote this journal page i realized
that someone else's opinion of my work
became more important than the actual
pleasure of creating, of being lost in the color, the texture,
the discovery of what comes next.
never a good starting point.
when i let go worrying about how it would turn out,
i began to have fun again.
the page says,
being an artist is not dependent
upon the number of sales you make.